Aftereffects

I try so hard but still I can’t resist.The after effects are there but you have to, there is no way out. Lets see how it goes.

I am talking about boozing :)

Complexities of life

To freeze a moment in time and to see the gradual process of life,one would only be conclusive that if there was anything certain in life,it is that life is uncertain.To look back at moments where memories could relive the moments, causing the emotions within to stir as if it was happening in the present, I could see moments when I could be so certain of where I am heading and the next moment the insinuation of life engulfs the very confidence I had.

But the moments where I would be in doubt is not constituted by one, but many factors in life. But amidst these points of time I found assurance.It is not only at the lowest of highest point in life that you get to experience the reality of God but also at the points of inflection in life.Each time something had cropped up to cloud my mind from distinctive clarity of my purpose, I would only resort to one thing. I have learned that solving issues with human strength would only make things worst ...or at times make things just "ok". Never with our own capabilities are we given the inclination or the capacity to turn our problems into a victory.It is only by GOd , and through God.

When the tides start to rise beyond our control, we feel intimidated and often lose hope. Experience has thought me that the best way....in fact the only way to overcome the impossibilities in life is to surrender.Surrender not to the circumstances but surrender to God.

It was not long ago when I had a "date" with God. I was at the top of building, shattered by the events happened recently.It was dark, as usual. I was often found alone at this hour at this place, each time I realize I could not handle the accumulation of the perplexity of life.Each time I managed to find time with God, I realize that it becomes my point of education by learning something new.

This time it was something new.Something worth acquiring. As I lay down on the slide, I looked up into the sky.There were no stars.The clouds had covered them.I knew what God was telling me. The complexities and unaccustomed problems that I go through were similar to the clouds that covered the sky.It limits my perspective of life and focuses my eyes on the problems and not God.But the stars were there. I knew the stars were there but I couldn't see them. Then God spoke to me " Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

It struck me that although I could not see beyond the problems, I had to have faith that behind them.....
There was God.

Life is Good?

We're all trapped.

Each of us is stuck being who we are. Sometimes we fight to change ourselves, but ultimately this has little effect. We can change what we do, but we cannot change who we are.

I am not a happy person. Maybe you're not either. Maybe you're too fat, or too thin, too old,or too young.Nobody loves you and it's all meaningless. Maybe your body is fucked up and you're in pain all the time. Maybe your mind is fucked up and you're in pain all the time.

So you struggle with all these problems year after year, and you're getting nowhere, and
you wonder if anything will ever change. And the unavoidable reality of it all is that, for you,
life sucks.

But of course you're not going to give up so easily, you're going to keep struggling to
solve your problems, to change yourself, to find happiness, wherever it is, whatever it is.
But still, life sucks.

And you see all these people out there who are blissfully free of your problems, and if they
can do it, there must be some way for you to as well. But they aren't doing you any good at
all, they don't understand what it's like being you, and what good would it do you if they did
understand?

So, the forces which created you, random or otherwise, have spoken. And they've
determined that, for you, life sucks.

Maybe life sucks because we're all really just big brained primates who were meant to
be living in small tribal groups hunting and gathering food, and our pain is the natural
result of our living in an unnatural environment.

Maybe life sucks because we haven't turned our lives over to Jesus or Allah or whoever the One True God happens to be.

Maybe life sucks because we all have chemical imbalances in our brains.

The first proposition implies that the answer to life's problems is to abandon technology.

The second is claimed by hundreds of different groups of religious fundamentalists, all
of which disagree on the identity and nature of this One True God.

The third is put forth by psychiatrists.

I'm not sure which of the above groups is worse, but given their accomplishments or
lack thereof, I highly doubt they have any answers for us.

So, I don't know the ultimate cause of, or the solution to, life's problems. I don't know
how to end this with any helpful advice or words of wisdom. If you think you do, let me know.